When setting out to become an entrepreneur it is very crucial in early stages that you have the support of your friends and family. Why? It is because other people are not familiar with your product or service. Initially the only people that can vouch for you are the ones that support you or are closest to you.
I have had challenges venturing into my passions because I've never fully had the support of my family and friends. Given this I have had a hard time accepting that I had gifts and struggled with myself for years on what I wanted to do because of the lack of support that I had. Of course, my mother, my brother, and my best friend have always 100% been there for me and have supported my ventures. However, it was extremely hard and challenging to reach an audience. It did not matter how much time and work I put into it.
The reason I am stating this is because when I stepped into streaming, I started to receive support from people that did not even know me. This shocked the heck out of me! Since then, I sought an opportunity and I started to gain back confidence in my creative skills. At the beginning, it was all new to me and exciting. This made me naïve and I did not stay aware about the different harmful people or things I may encounter while growing my community on twitch.
I began networking with different people because well, that's how I have always been...friendly. That being said I never thought I would be in a situation where my name was tarnished and discredited.
Before I continue my story. I want to make you aware that before I began streaming, I was running my own registered business "Inspire Image" where I provided local & freelance services in promotional materials, graphics, photography and event planning. With this note, I would NEVER run the risk of being labeled as a bad business for ANYONE! I worked so hard to build a good reputation and rapport with clients and businesses that offered me contract work. I may not always talk about my work on cam but I intentionally carry myself a certain way because I never know who's watching me.
Through grade-school and high-school, I was taught by my peers to hold and bite your tongue when you cross paths with those who attack you (verbally, emotionally or physically). Otherwise you would be labeled as a snitch.
Remember when we were kids, and we use to say, "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me!" whenever someone in class or on the school playground bullied you. This mentality is not only harmful to yourself but to our youth and others who could face the same tribulations or even worse.
Unless you have been through the same traumatic experiences, you cannot expect someone to just stay quiet and never speak on their trauma. Any kind of pain that a person endures must come out eventually in order to heal, just hopefully not when it is too late.
The video below is something I struggled with re-sharing because of fear. I worry of the back lashing that I may receive in sharing this because of the status of an individual who was involved. Please watch from a point of understanding me. You do not have to agree with me sharing this but its apart of my story & growth as a content creator. If you are having doubts about viewing this video, then please refrain from sharing to unlock it and continue to the next part.
On a stream last week I mentioned that I would share my story & that I was ready to move forward so I can grow and flourish in my upcoming ventures. I wanted to be transparent so that others who want to be apart of my life can come to understand my emotions when it involves connecting and meeting others. I have definitely opened up more, but I'd be lying to you if I didn't admit that connecting with others sometimes worries me or simply just freaks me out. I never know what people's intentions are. Maybe I worry too much, but I am just simply human. Too many times I've opened up to let others in only to be handed the short end of a stick. And to be clear, noooo, I'm not a shy person, but I do overthink at simple things like "Why does this person even like me?" I'm still working on me and try not to concern myself with those thoughts, but it gets easier day by day.
Hopefully me sharing my thoughts gave you a little bit more insight of me and why I move the way that I do. This is the beginning of something new and I hope that I can share this experience with you.